This week really broke me in many ways and it has caused many doubts for me.   We got to spend the day with the kids this past Sunday. While it was a great day hiking it also was a very hard day for us, especially me. Last weekend when the kids were here they […]

Last weekend was one of my hardest weekends since this journey started with the kids. I felt like I failed them over and over. Not that I did, but in my eyes I saw it as failing. It’s like we take a few steps forward with the kids and then they leave and take a […]

I used to love roller coasters as a kid, like I couldn’t wait to go on all the big rides. We had season passes to Great Adventure (Six Flags for the non NJ people) and we went so many times. I wasn’t afraid of any roller coasters. Now I hate roller coasters and I have […]

We had a really good time with the kids this past Sunday, it was like something has changed in them for the better. We took them to see a movie and we both looked at them and got very emotional. Like this is our family. The kids hadn’t been to a movie before, so this […]

So my faith is still being tested. It has been a rough few weeks dealing with things. However I do see God working in the process, especially in me. I pray every day for faith, hope and patience. I get on my knees every night and pray. A lot of those prayers end up in […]

This past Sunday Jimmy and I had a long conversation on the way home from spending the day with the kids. I have been bottling a lot up inside and not sharing how I really feel or writing my thoughts out. I haven’t written a journal in a long time and I have cried a […]

Growing up Thanksgiving was always a big deal in my family. While in Jimmy’s family it was all about hunting. We always had big family Thanksgiving meals in my family. My mom always cooked dinner. When I was older I would help. I remember peeling a lot of potatoes. We had a lot of Dallas […]

It has been a few frustrating months with the house.This week we are starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Our inspector had some major concerns with the framing. However our project manager was all over the list to get things done and done right. We believe he is on our […]

On our walk today I said to Jimmy, I wonder what God is trying to teach us, he was like right?!?! There is a lot going on in our lives between issues with the building of our house, Cashew having to go back to the vet and my surgery. I am stressed and overwhelmed. I […]

So on a walk recently I was listening to a podcast and they said something that hit home with me. It was about finding joy. It got me thinking about all the things I do and can find joy in. Even when it is tough, there are things that I can find joy in. First […]

Have you ever gone through a phase where it is hard to stay motivated? Whether it’s being healthy, chasing a dream or to get up early in the morning? After moving into our apartment I had a week that I was having a hard time staying motivated to eat healthy, work on my business and […]

So if you read part one and part two, you will know that I changed the focus of my business and we sold our house. You might be wondering why all these changes.    Well in the beginning of 2020, I felt God calling me to do something else. I really had no idea what […]